DAY 2
HELLO,
Wow I’m so tired. Well last night was rough. Before I begin about my horrible couple of days, I just want to say a few things about my family. I swear it won’t be a book ((:
I live with my 38 year old mother and my two brothers, one is 20 and the other is 14. This leaves me to be smack dab in the middle as the only girl. No I’m not spoiled……..everyone’s always like (awww you must be so spoiled since you’re the only girl and middle child). …….ummm wrong! Complete opposite of spoiled. Any who I have 2 cats and a turtle. That’s my family.
On Saturday around noon…I was on my way home from college and traffic was really bad, congested and a lot of construction. Everyone is bumper to bumper. Well the man in front of me decides to slam his brakes out of nowhere and I slam into him. Maybe I was distracted, maybe my brakes are bad (which they are) but I was soooo mad. So we pulled into a parking lot. He gets out of his car and so do I. I apologize; ask if he and his son are okay and all that. I hit his car hard but there was no damage done. I really was hoping to just say okay …. “sorry but I got to go.” Unfortunately it doesn’t work that way)): he ended up having about an inch of a bubble on his bumper….. (Shit) was all I could think of in my head!
So we did all the insurance exchange and stuff
and then I went home. I asked if he can get an estimate first before he takes it to his insurance, my insurance will sky rocket up. If it’s cheap I’ll just pay for it. So he just got back to me and said it will be $754.13. Man I’m sooo pissed! He said this does not include a rental car. The quote is to remove the bumper and repair the bump then paint and reinstall with a new chrome molding. Joy for me! My older brother just got his whole front of his car smashed by 2 deer’s, 2 days 4 days ago and skimmed a parked car. I know what you are thinking, we must be horrible drivers! We are not though! The other thing is my family just got kicked off our insurance because we have too many car accidents. So we just go
t new insurance to finally take us, we’ve only had them for a month and we already had 2 accidents. In March I hit 2 cars at once while they were parked and then fled the scene because I was so scared. I didn’t get far and I was in
huge trouble. I was 17 without a license. So y
eah I’ve been having a lot of bad luck. Or maybe I’m just a non-driving ass lol I’ll just leave it on you to decide. I am a great driver, I drive on the speed limit, I don’t listen to loud music, I don’t weave, I check my mirrors every 5 seconds, I wear my seatbelt, I don’t speed …..So basically I drive like a freaking old person...you know the ones that everyone is always yelling at on the road. I am a good driver. I really don’t kno
w how I get in these situations. I cried in March when I caused that accident and I also cried on Saturday as well. I just got my license last month. I am afraid to drive now. I don’t want to drive anymore. I just don’t want to anymore. I’m not being dramatic either. I drive my mom’s Toyota jeep and yeah it’s big and that’s probably one of the reasons why. I need something smaller but I don’t even have a car and I don’t have the money to buy a car r and my mom is defiantly not buying me a car. I just feel bad; it’s my m
om’s car that I damaged, it’s her insurance and it’s not cheap. I really feel bad. My mom is really stressed out with a lot of things at the moment and now this too. I am just hoping by the end of this month that my financial aid college money with go through my account and that way I can just give that money to my mom to pay
for the car. That guy really wants to take the car to the insurance company and I really hope he doesn’t because our insurance will go out the roof! Especially if my brother’s car is there as I type right now. Please pray for me guys that I can just get this over with.
So yeah I do believe in bad luck. My famil
y has really bad luck all the time. We are really good people. Just always at the wrong place, at the wrong time.
Okay so the other thing that happened yesterday night. …..my mom and had a fight. My mom and I fight a lot! All the time, we never get along, we don’t see eye to eye and it’s very sad. It really hurts. But we had dinner and everything was okay and then she went outside to smoke. I then asked her to put the password in for
the computer….yes it’s pathetic but I will also talk about that later …be patient and everything will fall in place and make sense soon. But any who yeah she just freaked out on me. Started screaming, swearing and just smacked my little brother and started throwing things, books all over the place. So we got into a fight and sta
rted arguing. My older brother came upstair
s and started yelling and screaming, swearing and telling us to shut up. So he punches me and my younger brother on the shoulder. This is all in front of my older brother’s friend as well. So my brother just makes it worse! ….my mom walks outside and yup that is my beautiful happy family!
Well then, let me explain my mother. She is
a very nice person,giving,loving and just kind. But she also is very controlling, demanding, picky, she has OCD, things have to be perfect in her eyes, she only hears what she wants to hear, she’s impatient, she thinks she is never wrong and always right, can be snobby and rude, she has bipolar, depression and has heart problems, she takes lots of medications, she nags and can be extremely annoying! But she’s my mom I love her.
My mom has a lot of mood swings, which
cause my mom and me to fight all the time.
My mother never treated me the same a
s my brothers. I was always different to her in her eyes. I am the one who is always there for her always taking care of her, always spoiling her, always by her side 24/7 literally, my mom has a leash on me, a very short one. I am with her at all times and yes it drives me crazy but there is nothing I can do about it. The 4 walls around me are all I have. I am sooooo independent! Do you have any idea how it feels to be so independ
ent but yet having to be sooooooo dependent on my mom? I hate it. My mom controls my every move. Everything I say and do is how she wants it to be. My life is like her very own board game to play. My older brother is like the king in her eyes, he comes first no matter what and gets sooooooooo spoiled and gets whatever he w
ants. He is very dependent on my mom. He can’t do anything! M y younger brother is her baby in her eyes and always will be…gets away with everything and is very spoiled as well. I do everything for them cook, clean, everything! They rely on me for everything. They don’t appreciate anything I do. None of them, including my mother!
I am just so tired of being treated that w
ay!
Any who ……if I completely just change topics it’s because I’m too upset and I am just random that is how I speak and do things. Sorry I do eventually come back to the topic. I hope you guys understand me cause, there really isn’t anyone who does?????
Well after that long night, my mom watched a movie with me and my younger brother and we were all fine. We watched “the stoning of Soraya m.” it was unbelievably sad and horrifying. It is based on a true story. An innocent woman is
accused of adultery and is stoned to death. This is not a man’s world!!!! It outrages me!!! I don’t mind living in a man’s world as long as I can be a woman in it! Woman still don’t have rights in Afghanistan, Iran, Iraq and so many other pl
aces. after i watch that movie i cried soooooo much during and after that movie...I'm the type of person if i am interested in something..i learn as much as possible about it and i googled for hours and i was sooo upset. i always want to do something and sometimes i do!
Please watch that movie!
Here are some photos and website videos: please look and watch
Her body after being stoned to death
well good night guys
talk to ya later
-Twisted
Hey everyone!
Okay…..I’m not sure how to do this whole thing yet but I’m sure I’ll get a hang of it.
I thought it would be a great way to express myself to the world through blogging.
Well I’ll start off with why I called my blog: A day in my shoes. Let’s just say it’s rough and I feel like people need to know what it’s like in my shoes.
Well I turned 18 years young in June….soooooo now what ?
I’m lost, I’m scared, I’m confused and so much more. I just want someone to hear me out. I guess I’ll start off small and just talk about the things that are just going on in my life at this moment. I have plenty of time to open up.
Well now I’m going to just talk about myself for a little bit, so you guys somewhat have an idea on how I am. I’m pretty open and I like to talk. I enjoy reading ….no I’m not some kind of nerdy girl but a cute bookworm ,I would say((: I do have a sense of humor, I make people laugh, I love laughing. I am very spontaneous; me being spontaneous can get me very far in life and as well get me in trouble. I don’t tend to think twice on things. Which means as soon as I have an idea I react on it and sometimes it’s great and sometimes it’s a completely bad. I always happen to be at the wrong place, at the wrong time. I am very mature for my age. I am an old soul in a young body. I always have a point, I believe in what’s right is right and what’s wrong is wrong. I am a very nice person….i think too nice, that I forget that the real world is a wakeup call and that there are tons of assholes and bitches out there! I am crazy and twisted ….i think ….but who isn’t!? I love fashion, clothes, and that whole feminine look. I don’t like to shop and no I don’t hang out at the mall ……whoever invented online shopping is a genius!!! There is a lot I want to do in my life but I have no idea if I will do them. I am ambitious but the people in my life are always in my way. If I have an opinion on something I’m not shy to let you know. I can be blunt. I tend to lie a lot and wow I am actually telling the truth. I plan to be completely honest on here …..Because I’m tired of lying to people and probably because I don’t know who you are. I have a huge imagination. I am not selfish at all even though I would love to be sometimes. I tend to have dumb blonde moments only because I don’t think my thoughts through before I say them. I don’t really have friends not because I don’t know how to have friend s but I’ll get into that later. I used to have tons of friends. I used to kick box, play the violin, go to school dances and all that junk. But now the only thing around me is my 4 walls and everything is black and white. I can probably go on forever but you’d probably shoot yourself ((: I don’t want to bore you to death but that is just some things about me that I think people should know.
Okay I think I’m off to a good start. I just want my story out there I’m not a gray person but I’m so sick of keeping everything inside me and I don’t have the average 18 year olds life …way offffffffffff! Well that’s all I am going to say for now …..and I hope I get some followers and I hope you enjoyed what I had to say.
talk to you when I talk to you ((:
-Twisted
